A New Life
By: Sarosan
In January 2010 I picked up my life in my native Tempe, AZ and moved to Houston, TX. Really the reason for me moving here was for my girlfriend who I met playing WoW in 2007. At the time I was more than excited to start a new life in a new city, but I'd be lying if I wasn't nervous. Sure, I'd travelled to other places in the U.S. with my family and friends, but never without them. This would be the first time I'd be away from everyone for more than a week.
Almost immediately after arriving here a massive feeling of emptiness overcame me. In my passion for being with someone I loved, I had overlooked just how much my family and friends meant to me. My mother, father, sister, and brother had been my best friends my entire life. I had grown to love them more than I realized.
Then came August 2011. In my depression I decided to move back home to Tempe, leaving behind someone I loved very much. The day I walked through the door of my parents house was the worst pain I'd ever felt in my life. What had I done? I left my girlfriend and my life behind in Houston to chase a feeling that no longer existed. You see, once you leave home and forge your own life somewhere else, home no longer feels like the home you remember. I wanted to think everything would go back to normal, but normal was no longer where I thought it should be. It was back in Houston with my love, not where I had just driven 1200 miles to be. It was the biggest mistake of my life.
Fast forward 3 months of pain and working at Wal-Mart (go hand-in-hand) and I move back to Houston feeling fortunate and humbled that my love had taken me back and given me another chance. It's now been 7 months since I've moved back here and things are much better than they were before. I credit a better attitude to my success.
There's an aching feeling I have every now and then that I'm a coward, driven by my emotions, afraid to face life. I grew up playing video games, dreaming of being somewhere else. I grew up living in a fantasy world. Am I ready to face and defeat my fears? I hope I am.
Go over, go through, go around, but never give up.